Coffee

I like coffee stains on white sheets of paper. I spilled some on my notebook (after I accidentally dipped my earphones into it) in the office today and spent a good 30minutes staring at it drying off. just a wet black blob at first...and then it slowly turned a dullish muted brown...lighter in the middle and darker in tone around the uneven edges, the alveolis if you take a closer look.

I'd imagine that the stain's an island in a sea of white....a mountain and white's the plains. A dark intention, in an otherwise unblemished heart.

SFO

I dreamt that I was in San Francisco. nice sunny evening. I was driving around at first. down the hill, almost went into the wrong lane, and got into a historical part of town where there's an old railway track still in use (I think this part came from images of Folsom) and then suddenly I was walking across a street on top of the undulating hill, the whole of San Francisco was visible, and the sea too. and I took out my blackberry and attempted to take a self potrait against the backdrop. and then I noticed that there's a tiny cafe across the street. painted olive green. and in the dream I remember that I'd been there before with another friend, and that friend referred to the place as the "Oyster Boy". odd.
at the time of that realization, it was already getting dark, because the lanterns beside the spanish door to that little cafe were on. and there's a juliet balcony on the second floor. It was really dark inside but I could see a dirty white ottoman peeking through the black wrought iron railing.

Happiness is on the way :)

This might sound corny as hell to some but anyways...it's an awesome play by Lhasa's standard.

Let's step on the way to happiness
Where it is above the bright cloud
Where it is farther than the wind may blow
You will hear Tibet sing happily
Go and find the golden key to happiness
Go and open the xingbala door
Where the sun and the moon are within reach
Happiness.. is wider than the heaven
Brighter than the sun

-unknown source-

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Prayers in the wind

Here you still need your sunnies at 8pm :) but it doesn't bother me a tiny bit.
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The path to freedom is paved with blood

Greetings from the top of the world! Well...almost...at 5100+ meters above sea level now and it feels amazing..it really does.

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women in sarong

Went back to visit mom last weekend. it was her birthday. Awesome getaway weekend. a much needed break from all the booze and cigz. We dropped by grandma's place too. I'd missed that quaint little thai village. sights and sounds that make me regress willingly into my childhood years.

And I spoke in thai to grandma, aunt Si, and aunt Rai...and it made me miss the people I knew when I was much younger.


and i hadnt seen dad looking so ..... animated in awhile...it's always good times whenever aunt Si comes for a visit :)

September

Many people have asked this question..."what is that picture on your phone..it's a really weird picture to put as a wallpaper."


It's a photo I took about 5 years ago. a perfect september day in California.


We were driving in your car....after an insane day at 6 Flags Magic Mountain...the sun was setting....

Somewhere along the freeway....somewhere in Irvine if I remember...we'd just left LA....on the way to San Diego. We had big dreams....we were happy people...we laughed and laughed. we talked about life....and how our balls shrank when we went down the Goliath ride earlier on.....
"wake me up when september ends" was on the radio...I had my feet on the car seat and you didnt even say a thing about it....you wound down the window and the crisp chilly september air rushed in...you took out your Malboro Lights and offered me one...we left the window down and took in the evening and couldnt get enough of it...



It was a perfect moment in time. I remember closing my eyes and wishing that time would just stop. and we would just drive into the sunset like that forever.

I opened my eyes and took out my camera. took a picture and captured one perfect split second of my life.

Dusk

One of the reasons why I hate taking a nap in the afternoon is waking up at dusk.
Everything would be so still, and I'd be so disoriented. I wouldn't know what time it is, or what I'd done earlier...sometimes it'd take me awhile to convince myself what year it is...
And then everything'd slowly hit me...random memories...things to do...reminders to self...birthdays....like the tons of job waiting to be done in the office...or the time when I was 7 when I came home to find the little kitty missing.
And then it'd so quiet outside...except for the occasional distant buzz of motorcycles passing by.
And when my body's finally willing to get off the bed I'd go around turning on all the lights in the house. It's less lonely that way.


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H.a.p.p.y

天啊 ...today I might've missed a meeting, I don't know...I guess I forgot to notice.
I am happy.
My little happiness lies in the simple things that come my way.
Smiles on faces passing by.
The smell of coffee.
The tender warmth of the last ray of the day.
The wind that blew the crispness of yellowed January leaves through my hair.
That dimple.
The fragrant chicken rice I had.
The sound of running water when I turned on the tap.
The stupid fly which refused to leave even when I had all four windows down.
I found myself smiling.
For the littlest of things.
And I thought..did something good happen today?
No..not really....but I'm smiling...

Hmmmph...for these simple things.
So I must be happy.

And I pray. That these little happiness, they won't ever leave me.



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bliss

Drama-free

it's a fine day today ;) woke up. got a couple of things done at work. came home early...thats 5:30pm. facebooked a little. bought dinner from the chinese place nearby. got home....'ran' like forest gump on crack on the apartment's beat-up elliptical machine. sweated like a whore in church. ate dinner in front of the telly...(AFC channel yay!) ...opened up my work laptop and sent out a couple of mails....worked the biceps with the dumbbell i have in the room....watched a little bit of porn teehee and now i'm ready for bed :)

good nite peeps. it's been a beautiful relaxing drama-free day for me. pheww.